Life as I Know It

The electric guitar being played in the room above mine feels like a scalpul being scraped slowly across my exposed brain and nerves. This kid has been playing all day today and all last night. The international student I was going to interview and do a profile on for the paper is not answering my e-mail, and of course, no phone. But I got my other articles in.



Life for me mostly consists of writing for the paper, homework, work, counceling messed up people, and spending time with my boyfriend. Life is good, but as far as spiritual challenges and encouragement go, there's not a lot. Finals week is closing in. the semester is almost over and though it's been great and I've learned a lot and met some awesome people, looking back I wonder where it has gone. A lot of things have happened, even big things, like starting to date Ryan, but when I look my life previous to college what stands out the most is the moments when I was with God, when I was used by him, when I was spiritually encouraged or challenged, and I realize that's what's missing from college so far. It's not memorable moments - there's plenty of those - but it's the spiritual mile markers that have so defined the rest of my life, things I look back on and find encouragement and strength from. There aren't any since coming to college. Life is good, but I want more. I've had more. I want more of God. I want to be changed and challenged and molded into the person he wants me to be. I want to be pushed to be better, to make mile markers. I crave that. This next semester I tried to set classes up with all that in mind, so hopefully it will be better.

I'm excited to be going home in two weeks and seeing all my friends but figuring out how I'm getting home has been frusterating. Also going to miss Ryan a lot. He wanted me to come see him for part of break but, again, getting there is the problem. Everything is so expensive!